Something Inspiring

Finding Gold in the Shadow
~ Mireille Dupuis

And you thought I was so bad, so negative, so scary.... But you’re starting to see that I have been your ally all along. The guardian of the treasures you have hidden along the way. A little girl who, a long time ago, knew how to be happy. I have kept her warm and safe until you were ready to take her back home.

A little girl with a deep loving nature, who longed to spread love around but who didn’t know where to plant the seeds; everyone was so busy surviving.

A little girl, an artist, who thought she had better hide because she wasn’t meeting her parents’ expectations; who didn’t know she’d better follow her dreams.

I am the keeper of the courage you found to look into yourself and to find shadow in the light and light in the shadow.

The keeper of your gifts, the keeper of your integrity.

I am the angry voice who cannot stand to see you compromising yourself and desperately trying to please others; forgetting your dreams, your visions.

I am the one longing for balance, for the whole to be considered. I am the other side of things, the other half. Without me, you can only hope to be half of who you are. Within me, you can reconcile opposites and conceive of a wiser, better-fitting solution that brings unity rather than opposition.

I am the keeper of your truth.

I am the no-nonsense voice in you, the one that you can’t fool. The voice who lets you know you’re not being real.

The voice that needs to say she was bored or hurt or angry when you acted out of a sense of duty, and not out of authenticity.

I am the keeper of your honesty.

I am the one bored to death, screaming you can do better than that when you stay in your empty, meaningless, well-paying job.

I am the one who will do this unacceptable thing that will get you fired from the empty job so you can start addressing more pressing matters, matters of truth, and matters of the heart.

I am the keeper of the secrets you keep from yourself, the ones you don’t dare look at for fear that they might hurt too much; for fear that they might not sound socially acceptable; for fear that you might see beyond a shadow of a doubt that you need to make changes. I am the keeper of your strength; the strength that you found to trade your victim eyes for clarity and vision.

I was the keeper of your self-confidence while you were so busy doubting yourself. The keeper of your self-worth when you were saying you weren’t worth it, you didn’t deserve it.

I am the voice screaming of injustice when you’re not living up to your potential, when you don’t take care of yourself and you envy someone else who does; when you waste your time and find yourself wanting to be somebody else instead of creating your own ideal reality.

And I am the one hurting when I see you sabotaging your chances of success.

And I am the bitter one when I hear you belittling yourself.

And I am the angry one when I see you not honouring yourself.

I am the voice you hear when you have compromised yourself.

I am your potential.

I am your shadow

The Awakening

Just when i think life's perfect i hit a curb and BOOM back to the drawing board lady. But it seems that my life is getting better now. I realised id lost the most important thing while delving deep into the pits of "love"...Myself. I'd become someone i was not by trying to change myself for someone else. But oh heck atleast i learnt a few things along the way so it was'nt a total waste. I got to thinking and did a bit of soul searching about what i really want for myself. I see my family around me and i have my work, true im living oceans apart from home and friends but im still where i want to be in life.

The funniest part of it all is im not even hurting. I actually feel like i finally achived freedom (funny ain't it). Yep i feel like im back again. The wacky zany crazy Z who's always upto some mischief and always smiling and making other ppl smile along. I'm hoping to achieve so much in this life so many goals and ambitions to fulfill. Seems there arent enough hours in a day.

Life is wonderful and beautiful when you're happy and not obsessing or tensing yourself over something you can never change. I'm glad my life is getting back on track and i'm living and enjoying every moment of it. Seems i had forgotten how to laugh and now ive gotten it back.

They say it's always the small things from everyday life you remember the most about a person.
I think when it's my time to go from this world (which wont be for years so dont worry) i'll most be remembered for my smile.

Window Of Thoughts

I was lying on the couch in my room exhausted from my trip back from Los Angeles my home where I once again left behind friends and came back to India. Everytime I come back here I'm reminded of my plight such as it is. Alone in a land not my own in a place which does'nt feel like home oceans apart from all the things familiar to me and friends whom I sorely miss. But today as I was lying on my couch and looked at the sun streaming in from my window and felt wha! it's such a gorgeous day why waste it by feeling sorry for myself lol. It looked so peaceful and beautiful outside that i just had to snap it for posterity. This is a view from my window.

Cold Fog

This is a picture i took with my Phone camera while on one of my trips exploring this country. Really love the way it captured the cold fog hanging over the river.